So things are coming to a stand-still.
I'm not fulfilling my plans, I'm not carrying out my set-deeds, I'm not doing anything.
I had planned by now to be doing steady revision for my exams.
I had planned to be doing quiet times and Bible Study daily.
I had planned to start exercising more.
I had planned...
BUT
I can't find the energy to pick up a book.
I can't find "time" to read my Bible.
I can't find the willpower to get active.
In reality I'm doing nothing.
I'm virtually just living and that's that.
I'm procrastinating now more than ever before.
I just need a boost. A shove. A huge kick up the back-side.
I don't need plans, for unless rooted in Christ my plans are nothing.
I need God.
I need His Word.
It's all well and good typing this out, but doing it is different.
I admit I barely read the Bible anymore, I just about read my "Word 4 u 2day"
I just need God.
I need to realise how much I need him.
I have to let him take the front seat and stop making plans that fail.
And when they fail I feel worse and further away from God.
I need a new start.
I need prayers.
About Me
- Jules
- I am an 18 year old with big, list-worthy plans but little motivation. Life has taught me that you cannot always expect things to stick to the norm and so I have adapted as such. I find it hard to confide in people, but those that I trust; know. I like to say what I think as it avoids me being accused of being two-faced. Obviously this has gotten me into trouble before. But to quote my friend Will Shakespeare, "This above all - to thine own self be true."
1 comment:
This is exactly the story of everyones life!! I had also planned to be doing alot by now but it's hard to make thnigs work.
Infact i quote this part as exactly whats happening to me.
"I admit I barely read the Bible anymore, I just about read my "Word 4 u 2day"
If you can force yourself to start something then thats a helps big time, but then again time, time seems to be the enemy in making plans.
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